Where are you my friend named Peace
Sometimes this little world becomes so quietly scary
Do you know what I need...
I need a smile coming deep down from a concerned friend
I need a pat on my back to know that I am recognised
I need a concern to know that I am not alone
I need a simple dinner with my beloved friends which everyone is doing
I need a carefree day without any emotional worries
I need to be to see my family before it becomes too late
I need a little encouragement to know that I am not lousy
I need understanding without speaking
Dec 29, 2010
Sep 13, 2010
Simple theory...But we might all have forgotten.
Daddy and Mummy once said to their kid : "If you get top 5 in class, Mummy will bring you for a overseas holidays."
So the kid studied hard to be the best. Knowing that she is not the best in class, but she strive to do her very best.
And yes, Daddy and Mummy brings you for a holiday to Indonesia. Nearby. Indonesia is nearby. Even if it is nearby, but that is the reward that you worked for. And the kid knows its not easy for her family to afford it. When eating out even in a coffeeshop is already expensive.
But imagine if the kid don't have to work for it anymore and get the trips just as well. Do you think it is as memorable?
Everything that Daddy and Mummy buys, was a reward. A new schoolbag. A new pencil case. With is so simple, yet it was based on terms that the kid work for it.
Then, Daddy and Mummy was the "money" to get you things you worked for.
Now, The theory is the same.
Because you work for it. Simply that. Not hard to understand.
Sometimes even if we have grown up. The basic theory still exist. The basic that Daddy and Mummy onces said to the kid. "You want to get something. You work for it."
Yet, its not simple to understand.
So the kid studied hard to be the best. Knowing that she is not the best in class, but she strive to do her very best.
And yes, Daddy and Mummy brings you for a holiday to Indonesia. Nearby. Indonesia is nearby. Even if it is nearby, but that is the reward that you worked for. And the kid knows its not easy for her family to afford it. When eating out even in a coffeeshop is already expensive.
But imagine if the kid don't have to work for it anymore and get the trips just as well. Do you think it is as memorable?
Everything that Daddy and Mummy buys, was a reward. A new schoolbag. A new pencil case. With is so simple, yet it was based on terms that the kid work for it.
Then, Daddy and Mummy was the "money" to get you things you worked for.
Now, The theory is the same.
Because you work for it. Simply that. Not hard to understand.
Sometimes even if we have grown up. The basic theory still exist. The basic that Daddy and Mummy onces said to the kid. "You want to get something. You work for it."
Yet, its not simple to understand.
Emotional Value
Remember the feeling when you work your ass off to afford your first Braun Buffel wallet.
Remember the feeling when you work 2 years just to save up for the future and blow it all over in 1 trip to London.
Remember how hard it was to depart with a hundred dollars for the wallet and how heartpain to blow off all your 2 years savings for a trip to London.
Yet, it was memorable. Because these things are hard earned. And you made it. Though the value of the money is low as compared to current situation, yet, the value was so great.
Remember the first watch after working a year to afford it. That, was sense of acheivement.
Remember the second watch on your 23rd birthday. That, was a birthday gift for your own achievement. A reward. To be able to afford one that you like.
The first bag was of that value just as well.
Subseqently, all that follows lost its value. Not the value of the money. Yet, the emotional value. All that follows lose the emotional value. They don't mean as more anymore.
A bag is just like a bag. A bag to contain your stuff.
No longer a bag that was worth the sense of achievement and reward to myself.
Emotional value is when you know its worth. Emotional value is when you know the value in which this amout could do for yourself.
Emotional value is when it buys happiness. True happiness, simple little thing called happiness.
Simple little thing of knowing someone likes it. Simple thing of knowing that it makes a difference in someone's life. Simple thing of knowing it could possibly transform someone elses life. Simple thing that we all have, but some people will never have. Like a year of education. Like a pencil.
This give you a sense of inner happiness. To know that someone out there, appreciates this little things that might mean nothing to you, but mean a little difference to them. A year of education to us might not get us anywhere. But a year of education to others means the basic means of literacy. Literacy that could possibly lead them to a better life.
This is when the money works its wonder, not for you, but for others. And in return, this brings out its emotional value. The value of being able to achieve someone else's little dream, someone else's little smile.
Monetry value last only so much. But when you know, others benefits from it. When you know this could help mould a kids future, be it your own flesh or others less priviledge. When you know it could provide a shelter for others.
This is its real value. A sense of achievement. When you know, what you worked your ass off for, and how much worth it brings for working so hard for.
Remember the feeling when you work 2 years just to save up for the future and blow it all over in 1 trip to London.
Remember how hard it was to depart with a hundred dollars for the wallet and how heartpain to blow off all your 2 years savings for a trip to London.
Yet, it was memorable. Because these things are hard earned. And you made it. Though the value of the money is low as compared to current situation, yet, the value was so great.
Remember the first watch after working a year to afford it. That, was sense of acheivement.
Remember the second watch on your 23rd birthday. That, was a birthday gift for your own achievement. A reward. To be able to afford one that you like.
The first bag was of that value just as well.
Subseqently, all that follows lost its value. Not the value of the money. Yet, the emotional value. All that follows lose the emotional value. They don't mean as more anymore.
A bag is just like a bag. A bag to contain your stuff.
No longer a bag that was worth the sense of achievement and reward to myself.
Emotional value is when you know its worth. Emotional value is when you know the value in which this amout could do for yourself.
Emotional value is when it buys happiness. True happiness, simple little thing called happiness.
Simple little thing of knowing someone likes it. Simple thing of knowing that it makes a difference in someone's life. Simple thing of knowing it could possibly transform someone elses life. Simple thing that we all have, but some people will never have. Like a year of education. Like a pencil.
This give you a sense of inner happiness. To know that someone out there, appreciates this little things that might mean nothing to you, but mean a little difference to them. A year of education to us might not get us anywhere. But a year of education to others means the basic means of literacy. Literacy that could possibly lead them to a better life.
This is when the money works its wonder, not for you, but for others. And in return, this brings out its emotional value. The value of being able to achieve someone else's little dream, someone else's little smile.
Monetry value last only so much. But when you know, others benefits from it. When you know this could help mould a kids future, be it your own flesh or others less priviledge. When you know it could provide a shelter for others.
This is its real value. A sense of achievement. When you know, what you worked your ass off for, and how much worth it brings for working so hard for.
Sep 4, 2010
勇敢
解脱- A Mei
"解脱 是懂擦干泪看以后 找个新方向往前走
这世界辽阔 我总会实现一个梦
心里有一种渴望勇敢的念头..."
~ A Mei - 解脱
本来就是一场游戏。游戏里默默写着的规则，我没忘记。
心里偶尔也会有那沉重的伤感，但也默默渴望游戏不会结束。
但是，事实就是事实，再渴望，也是不会有任何的改变。
在你的未来里，我看不到，也感觉不到我的影子。
本来就是如此，不是吗？
在那无可避免的离别时，我希望我会有勇气对着这一个没有将来，但很美好回忆说的说："谢谢你。再见。"
离别时不再哭泣，不再伤感，不再渴望，也不在自私。。。
Jul 14, 2010
Feeling like winter in Summer
God knows what is troubling that confused and sad mind...
Only god knows because she doesn't know what is bothering that usual independent girl...when typing a blog feels like the tears are stuck behind the eyes.
Feel like crying but not sure what she's crying for.
Feeling useless, feeling definately less independent, feeling like a job didn't land on her hands like it should really be, feeling moody of her mood swings...One moment smiling and one moment worth smiling, she feels the opposite. Why does she feel like a breakup with herself?
Reading self help book is perhaps a sign that life needs some rectification and correction. Its time you need a book to remind yourself to buck up, and everything is not gonna matter one year down the road, so why bother getting all stressed about it. When you need a book to remind you that "snowball" effect of thoughts is really unhealthy and wasting alot of time stressing over it...
Buck up. Just Buck Up...Everyday...It will be ok...Someday, Someday...Someday winter would be over...
Only god knows because she doesn't know what is bothering that usual independent girl...when typing a blog feels like the tears are stuck behind the eyes.
Feel like crying but not sure what she's crying for.
Feeling useless, feeling definately less independent, feeling like a job didn't land on her hands like it should really be, feeling moody of her mood swings...One moment smiling and one moment worth smiling, she feels the opposite. Why does she feel like a breakup with herself?
Reading self help book is perhaps a sign that life needs some rectification and correction. Its time you need a book to remind yourself to buck up, and everything is not gonna matter one year down the road, so why bother getting all stressed about it. When you need a book to remind you that "snowball" effect of thoughts is really unhealthy and wasting alot of time stressing over it...
Buck up. Just Buck Up...Everyday...It will be ok...Someday, Someday...Someday winter would be over...
Jul 9, 2010
Dreaming of an Italian holiday
Well well, she still prefers European holidays over Asian-never-ending-shopping holidays...
She loves watching architecture, culture, history and.....and just a little shopping will do because its nothing too unique. You can do it back home too :)
Oh well...Should apply leave soon. Tentatively would be just herself on this trip unless someone pops up to join her.
This time, unlike London and Frankfurt, she wants to spend a fruitful air ticket and get travelling around in trains, which she always fear...And visit many places...
Rome, Florence, Venice, and if possible to squeeze in Amalfi, Naples in that short 11-12 days trip...she wants to see the blue and clear waters of the Mediterranean Sea...Though Southern part of Italy like Sicily would be god damn perfect but guessed it might be alitle chilly to visit near the end of the year...Oh well, leave those pretty Medditerranean places for future honeymoon, if it ever happens. Haha, and also the lavender fields would be one place on earth worth visiting :)
Just throw me beautiful scenery on the train, bicycle or a cute little vespa scooter...She'll be a damn happy girl...and a memory to last for a long long time...
She loves watching architecture, culture, history and.....and just a little shopping will do because its nothing too unique. You can do it back home too :)
Oh well...Should apply leave soon. Tentatively would be just herself on this trip unless someone pops up to join her.
This time, unlike London and Frankfurt, she wants to spend a fruitful air ticket and get travelling around in trains, which she always fear...And visit many places...
Rome, Florence, Venice, and if possible to squeeze in Amalfi, Naples in that short 11-12 days trip...she wants to see the blue and clear waters of the Mediterranean Sea...Though Southern part of Italy like Sicily would be god damn perfect but guessed it might be alitle chilly to visit near the end of the year...Oh well, leave those pretty Medditerranean places for future honeymoon, if it ever happens. Haha, and also the lavender fields would be one place on earth worth visiting :)
Just throw me beautiful scenery on the train, bicycle or a cute little vespa scooter...She'll be a damn happy girl...and a memory to last for a long long time...
Jun 30, 2010
The flying chairs
She feels like she have been sitting on this flying chair for a long long time...
So long that she no longer feels the freedom, feels the wind in her hair, feels the amazing scenery.
But rather, she feels the bar holding her in the seat, feels the distance of the her flying chair to the next flying chair, feels the monotonous ride...
All that freedom and all that happiness is only so much without being able to collide and have a laugh, without being able to hold the next chair, without being able to talk to your friend flying on the next chair...
So long that she no longer feels the freedom, feels the wind in her hair, feels the amazing scenery.
But rather, she feels the bar holding her in the seat, feels the distance of the her flying chair to the next flying chair, feels the monotonous ride...
All that freedom and all that happiness is only so much without being able to collide and have a laugh, without being able to hold the next chair, without being able to talk to your friend flying on the next chair...
Jun 22, 2010
June 2010
She knows that she hasn't been updating her blog for a darn long time...
After that, the company reorganisation, the old colleagues left, and she transferred to the other company...All for the better of tomorrow, hopefully...
And now with a little wee bit of time, hopefully this blog will be updated regularly enough...
Now that all friends are thousand miles apart, and being her, friendship is something she picks and choose with great fuss. And even among new friendships formed, the people she chooses to confide in are that very few.
So now...this would be that little space where she could trash it out, speak the unspoken, speak what she thinks, without worrying if it hurt others or if the words will change a certain situation...
Let's start by uploading some nice memories before it all fades...
Life was busy. Series of events unfold itself..
She will remember the days on site close to Dubai World Cup in March 27, 2010 for a long time. That was the day that everyone have been working towards, whereby visions became reality. Though we had barely rested enough from the past few days of mad rush to open Meydan Grandstand, nevertheless, the pride and all..it goes without saying...
After that, the company reorganisation, the old colleagues left, and she transferred to the other company...All for the better of tomorrow, hopefully...
And now with a little wee bit of time, hopefully this blog will be updated regularly enough...
Now that all friends are thousand miles apart, and being her, friendship is something she picks and choose with great fuss. And even among new friendships formed, the people she chooses to confide in are that very few.
So now...this would be that little space where she could trash it out, speak the unspoken, speak what she thinks, without worrying if it hurt others or if the words will change a certain situation...
Let's start by uploading some nice memories before it all fades...
Few weeks before the Grand Opening of Meydan
Sep 5, 2009
New Home @ Burj Views
Dear Folks!!
Ken's car on Thursday IKEA Shopping
The Living/Dining Area
On Friday 4th Sept...Cleaning day!!
Finally the long awaited day has arrived!! Finally I'm moving out to a place to call our own in Downtown Burj Dubai with Xueni!
Thanks dear friends who helped with the moving since dearest room mate flew back to enjoy life. Ha, I'm enjoying too!
Thanks Kenneth for your car and help with moving.
Thanks Tim and Sue for your help in cleaning.
Thanks security guard who is wayyyy better than my soon-to-be ex apartment who doesn't even give a damn to you when he sees that your hand are filled with more than what you carry and he doesn't help to push open the door.
Its more than moving to a better environment, its about having a free space to ourselves with our own breathing space, our own place to care for and maintain.
It not done up yet, but progress is as important too....
On the day I arrive to take site measurement after work
Ken's car on Thursday IKEA ShoppingThe Living/Dining Area On Friday 4th Sept...Cleaning day!!Aug 30, 2009
My imagination
Typing this is the middle of the night. She knows it well that she should go to rest. The body wants to rest, but the heart wants to stay awake to do more things, aimlessly.
It is one of those days that she wished the distance wasn't so far. She wish that she could finish work and head down for an aimless walk with him. The thought of walking down the street, just enjoying the company, even if there isn't much exchange of words, is simply heartwarming.
Somehow along the way, it seems that the perfect thought of the future never really comes to happen in real life for her. Well, of course there are moments that are more than what she can ask for, but human are greedy. The next time she's not ever gonna give up her annual leave. NEVER!! Just forget about what a fool she is to have given up. Damn it.
Somedays she wish she could just break the rules a little. But knowing the other half will not approve of it, she has to be obedient. Hmm...Well well..what can I say..Costly plan to execute and she is constantly reminded to spend wisely..But you know that there's some things that money could buy for you? Or should I say, money can exchange time for you, and maybe freedom.
If only I could spend the day with you. Like I've always wanted to. Guess that's why I'm made for who I am. Thank God that I'm created to daydream and imagine alot. Daydream and Imagine at work, and imagine my own fairytale, imagine going out with you, imagine being there with you in your every step. I wish I could have it realised than just purely imagining the best picture. Thinking too much sometimes hurt you on the inside. Especially when it is very simple to accomplish, but you seem to be the one whose not that ordinary.
Darling, I remember you and I definately miss you. Another 89days, 15hours and 56 minute is very long. I do have alot of imagined-plans.
Imagined being able to attend events with you.
Imagined spending a nice short holiday here with me, sightseeing, walking aimlessly...
Imagined being able to not hide from anyone about us..(which I'm very tempted not to hide anymore..)
Imagined going back home and go on a short trip nearby with you and my dear friends.
Imagined parents who accepted my decision.
Imagined if only I am courageable enough to admit to them.
Today was one of those days she remembered walking down the riverside and crying hard yet quietly on his shoulder. Today was one of those days she missed that presence so badly.
And on the other hand, she frustrated.
Some people should just mind their own business. We have no TV here, doesn't mean that your not-so-close friends can be your "celebrity entertainment news".
She felt being "supervised/watched/talk/thought about". She feels restricted, and definately provoked to display the rebellious side of her. Yes Love, I know you will always opt to go the other way of being in your own world and doing your own things. Yes, I want to but at the same time I wish people could just not talk. Its tiring to be wary of your surroundings, to be wary of your actions and words, to be wary of offending, to be wary of every single damn thing. Even wary of being seen walking out from office. I'M NOT A KID MUMMY!! And maybe because she's got enough of being wary of her actions, that's what tempting her not to hide him from anyone.
Goodnight world. Goodnight Love. Goodnight my friends.
It is one of those days that she wished the distance wasn't so far. She wish that she could finish work and head down for an aimless walk with him. The thought of walking down the street, just enjoying the company, even if there isn't much exchange of words, is simply heartwarming.
Somehow along the way, it seems that the perfect thought of the future never really comes to happen in real life for her. Well, of course there are moments that are more than what she can ask for, but human are greedy. The next time she's not ever gonna give up her annual leave. NEVER!! Just forget about what a fool she is to have given up. Damn it.
Somedays she wish she could just break the rules a little. But knowing the other half will not approve of it, she has to be obedient. Hmm...Well well..what can I say..Costly plan to execute and she is constantly reminded to spend wisely..But you know that there's some things that money could buy for you? Or should I say, money can exchange time for you, and maybe freedom.
If only I could spend the day with you. Like I've always wanted to. Guess that's why I'm made for who I am. Thank God that I'm created to daydream and imagine alot. Daydream and Imagine at work, and imagine my own fairytale, imagine going out with you, imagine being there with you in your every step. I wish I could have it realised than just purely imagining the best picture. Thinking too much sometimes hurt you on the inside. Especially when it is very simple to accomplish, but you seem to be the one whose not that ordinary.
Darling, I remember you and I definately miss you. Another 89days, 15hours and 56 minute is very long. I do have alot of imagined-plans.
Imagined being able to attend events with you.
Imagined spending a nice short holiday here with me, sightseeing, walking aimlessly...
Imagined being able to not hide from anyone about us..(which I'm very tempted not to hide anymore..)
Imagined going back home and go on a short trip nearby with you and my dear friends.
Imagined parents who accepted my decision.
Imagined if only I am courageable enough to admit to them.
Today was one of those days she remembered walking down the riverside and crying hard yet quietly on his shoulder. Today was one of those days she missed that presence so badly.
And on the other hand, she frustrated.
Some people should just mind their own business. We have no TV here, doesn't mean that your not-so-close friends can be your "celebrity entertainment news".
She felt being "supervised/watched/talk/thought about". She feels restricted, and definately provoked to display the rebellious side of her. Yes Love, I know you will always opt to go the other way of being in your own world and doing your own things. Yes, I want to but at the same time I wish people could just not talk. Its tiring to be wary of your surroundings, to be wary of your actions and words, to be wary of offending, to be wary of every single damn thing. Even wary of being seen walking out from office. I'M NOT A KID MUMMY!! And maybe because she's got enough of being wary of her actions, that's what tempting her not to hide him from anyone.
Goodnight world. Goodnight Love. Goodnight my friends.
Aug 14, 2009
Another Friday morning on 14th Aug
She's been not updating for a long time. She knows its. Maybe there's less things she's complaining about, since we have to admit that blog/journals are the little passageway that provides a little comfort to life.
In summery, life's been ok.
Yes, definately awkwards moments, like lesser talking to some people and more talking to another group of people. Drifting away from some and getting closer to others. But being here for about a year,(2nd Sept 2008,I landed in this city)perhaps, she's gotten used to the often changing politics/grouping of people. Something not that nice to happen, but maybe that's life and this trip here has taught her to see the world and the mankind a little bit more. Well, like I said, every bad things that happens in your life may not be that bad afterall :)
And, she's moving out to somewhere and hopefully we can secure the place. Somewhere we can call our own. And there's something about colleagues staying together. 1 year here and its has proven to be not that ideal idea because there's no break between office and home. Guess that's what we all need a home to go back to, to meet another group of people. Ok, not that she's staying out alone but yea..at least more private. Will upload more pictures of the moving house progress...and the cleaning and the moving and the fitting out works. Haha...Will have to move alone since my dearest roommate is going back SIN.
And yea, every thursday weekend, hopefully it stays the same. Having some nice dinner after work on Thurs evening and a little chilling session...guess makes life pass a little faster and less boring..Being someone who will sit infront of the screen waiting for something to happen...it definately helps alot to bring your mind somewhere else for a little break.
And leave's approved for end november till 20th December.
So yup...will wait for Nee to transfer some photos for me before images are loaded.
In summery, life's been ok.
Yes, definately awkwards moments, like lesser talking to some people and more talking to another group of people. Drifting away from some and getting closer to others. But being here for about a year,(2nd Sept 2008,I landed in this city)perhaps, she's gotten used to the often changing politics/grouping of people. Something not that nice to happen, but maybe that's life and this trip here has taught her to see the world and the mankind a little bit more. Well, like I said, every bad things that happens in your life may not be that bad afterall :)
And, she's moving out to somewhere and hopefully we can secure the place. Somewhere we can call our own. And there's something about colleagues staying together. 1 year here and its has proven to be not that ideal idea because there's no break between office and home. Guess that's what we all need a home to go back to, to meet another group of people. Ok, not that she's staying out alone but yea..at least more private. Will upload more pictures of the moving house progress...and the cleaning and the moving and the fitting out works. Haha...Will have to move alone since my dearest roommate is going back SIN.
And yea, every thursday weekend, hopefully it stays the same. Having some nice dinner after work on Thurs evening and a little chilling session...guess makes life pass a little faster and less boring..Being someone who will sit infront of the screen waiting for something to happen...it definately helps alot to bring your mind somewhere else for a little break.
And leave's approved for end november till 20th December.
So yup...will wait for Nee to transfer some photos for me before images are loaded.
Jul 17, 2009
Little things
Hmm...
Little things here and there make your day a little bad. Its good now. But..well, maybe life is just like that...when something picks up, something goes down. Some little things become such an issue.
Some days she wonder if its gonna be lost one day. Some days she wonder if its becoming less exciting. Some days she wonder if she should suppress her thoughts. There's fear. Fear of change. Fear of becoming tired or becoming a very tiresome person. The past sometimes seems to haunt her. The past sometimes remind her of who she might become, or might seem to be to others. Maybe its the combination. Maybe there's no best combination. Maybe there's a factor of sacrifice to make to attain some good from it?
Keeping shut the best option? Trying to be understanding is the best option? What's the best?
Little things here and there make your day a little bad. Its good now. But..well, maybe life is just like that...when something picks up, something goes down. Some little things become such an issue.
Some days she wonder if its gonna be lost one day. Some days she wonder if its becoming less exciting. Some days she wonder if she should suppress her thoughts. There's fear. Fear of change. Fear of becoming tired or becoming a very tiresome person. The past sometimes seems to haunt her. The past sometimes remind her of who she might become, or might seem to be to others. Maybe its the combination. Maybe there's no best combination. Maybe there's a factor of sacrifice to make to attain some good from it?
Keeping shut the best option? Trying to be understanding is the best option? What's the best?
Jun 1, 2009
out to the sea...
Summer's here...and just some little fun out at sea!! Just a little sunshine, a little sea water gets her happy...And yes..being afraid of sharks in M'sia water...and yet when Mel's manage to convince her to dip into the Arabian gulf waters...She just did it without any knowledge of the surrounding...there's sharks..haha..
Well but the water is warm and nice...its addictive and it didn't occur to her that warm water is where shark lives too!!! And the picture is a school of dolphins..nto shark..haha
May 11, 2009
1star shit
Yes, today's been relatively smooth sailing. Have learnt how to control her speech and action in the past 8 months...have to be ultra sensitive and ultra careful what you speak. Every word might get you into trouble, even the smallest, unimaginable issue.
And very delightful to have received a unexpected morale booster email (this is the plus point why today is less than 1 star shit).
Some times you know that some things are not possible because we are standing on a different greenwich meridian line. Yet, she didn't deny the power of imagination. It is good enough to bring you across the continent and accomplish it, in your mind.
Goodnight. Off the lights! Huggies!
And very delightful to have received a unexpected morale booster email (this is the plus point why today is less than 1 star shit).
Some times you know that some things are not possible because we are standing on a different greenwich meridian line. Yet, she didn't deny the power of imagination. It is good enough to bring you across the continent and accomplish it, in your mind.
Goodnight. Off the lights! Huggies!
May 10, 2009
Things she grew to hate
The Dubai Lesson: Going from dislike to Hate
One thing that pisses her off is when people don't talk with manners, put it in a simple term, being rude.
Being rude is one thing she wouldn't entertain...So no rude kids, no kids who misbehave...And she've noticed that she limit it to describing kids because most of the time, grown up have some manners. In this case, she's talking about a grown up. OLDER THAN I AM.
She hates rude reply especially when she tries to talk nicely to you though she's pissed off already. Enough said. Fucking rude...and it's pushing her limit. Not that she's got alot of patience, but she'll normally give face and she's been controlling her hot tempered way too much...and yet she's on the verge of sounding like something her mum would say:'You better talk with some manners before I slap you.'
She hates how she have to see other's mood to work. And bloody hell, this is not a farming industry!She's not a farmer and she doesn't have to rely on a bloody weather forecast to decide what to do with the day. Woman have PMS and are moody but hell no, I'm not talking about a woman here. I've never ever met someone who have 26days/mth PMS. Hello!! I'm a female and I don't think I've ever have such bad PMS as compared to alot of people, let alone you. And if you are really in a terrible mood in 26days out of 30days a month, shouldn't you have already learn some self control? And if you are in bad mood, you don't have to make everyone suffer like you do. (On another note, maybe that is why females are at times stronger than males? Because god decides that we'll get to suffer cramps monthly for 20+ years and yet we'll still need to carry on our daily duties as per normal. And because of that, we need to put up with people who try to make life difficult for you whether or not you are already super irritated by the backache and cramps. And yet at the same time, trying not to loose your temper at those bastards who never stop trying to make things difficult for you)
Work is work, your mood is none of her business because she's only here for work and how can you ever let your mood decides how people work should turn out to be? (Being a believer in you deserve what you get, being bad deserves no pity from her)
When you're in good mood, everything is ok and even if its not ok, you will source the answer out. But when your mood is bad, you done even bother to give an answer or, give a rude/crude fucking attitude/answer. And the point is, you don't have to do anything to offend the person. You can be ultra nice but it seems that the person can decide how to treat you by the mood he wakes up to...She's sick and tired of saying the word unprofessional.
Not that she's so perfect, not that she's not rude at times, not that she's sooo professional..
but just that I DON'T FUCKING OWE YOU A LIVING! No one in this world owe you a living. And no one is also responsible for your life (including your mood and tantrum and attitude). So kid, grow up!
And she dislike politics and lies (Worse still, stupid lies) White lies is never too much of a harm, that is what she think. However, to lie and think that people are stupid, and lying selfishly to benefit themselves is very disappointing. Very.
That's it. Enough of complain for the day, complain queen.
Thank you for her Takeshi's movie. Seeing your wit makes me smile like a crazy 6year old girl.
And thank you to her you-know-who-you-are for being way mature beyond your age. She can't help but always compare how much better you are. Everytime these shits happen, it always make her realise how indifferent you are and remind her of why she've always admire you, your attitude, your spirit, your temper..and the list can go on...and on...even your weakness is better than the other person's best (that's if she can remember your weakness)
Goodnight. Today has been a 8star shit. Let tomorrow be just a 1star shit.
One thing that pisses her off is when people don't talk with manners, put it in a simple term, being rude.
Being rude is one thing she wouldn't entertain...So no rude kids, no kids who misbehave...And she've noticed that she limit it to describing kids because most of the time, grown up have some manners. In this case, she's talking about a grown up. OLDER THAN I AM.
She hates rude reply especially when she tries to talk nicely to you though she's pissed off already. Enough said. Fucking rude...and it's pushing her limit. Not that she's got alot of patience, but she'll normally give face and she's been controlling her hot tempered way too much...and yet she's on the verge of sounding like something her mum would say:'You better talk with some manners before I slap you.'
She hates how she have to see other's mood to work. And bloody hell, this is not a farming industry!She's not a farmer and she doesn't have to rely on a bloody weather forecast to decide what to do with the day. Woman have PMS and are moody but hell no, I'm not talking about a woman here. I've never ever met someone who have 26days/mth PMS. Hello!! I'm a female and I don't think I've ever have such bad PMS as compared to alot of people, let alone you. And if you are really in a terrible mood in 26days out of 30days a month, shouldn't you have already learn some self control? And if you are in bad mood, you don't have to make everyone suffer like you do. (On another note, maybe that is why females are at times stronger than males? Because god decides that we'll get to suffer cramps monthly for 20+ years and yet we'll still need to carry on our daily duties as per normal. And because of that, we need to put up with people who try to make life difficult for you whether or not you are already super irritated by the backache and cramps. And yet at the same time, trying not to loose your temper at those bastards who never stop trying to make things difficult for you)
Work is work, your mood is none of her business because she's only here for work and how can you ever let your mood decides how people work should turn out to be? (Being a believer in you deserve what you get, being bad deserves no pity from her)
When you're in good mood, everything is ok and even if its not ok, you will source the answer out. But when your mood is bad, you done even bother to give an answer or, give a rude/crude fucking attitude/answer. And the point is, you don't have to do anything to offend the person. You can be ultra nice but it seems that the person can decide how to treat you by the mood he wakes up to...She's sick and tired of saying the word unprofessional.
Not that she's so perfect, not that she's not rude at times, not that she's sooo professional..
but just that I DON'T FUCKING OWE YOU A LIVING! No one in this world owe you a living. And no one is also responsible for your life (including your mood and tantrum and attitude). So kid, grow up!
And she dislike politics and lies (Worse still, stupid lies) White lies is never too much of a harm, that is what she think. However, to lie and think that people are stupid, and lying selfishly to benefit themselves is very disappointing. Very.
That's it. Enough of complain for the day, complain queen.
Thank you for her Takeshi's movie. Seeing your wit makes me smile like a crazy 6year old girl.
And thank you to her you-know-who-you-are for being way mature beyond your age. She can't help but always compare how much better you are. Everytime these shits happen, it always make her realise how indifferent you are and remind her of why she've always admire you, your attitude, your spirit, your temper..and the list can go on...and on...even your weakness is better than the other person's best (that's if she can remember your weakness)
Goodnight. Today has been a 8star shit. Let tomorrow be just a 1star shit.
May 9, 2009
Just a couple of lazy days...
And guess pictures will be left to speak of itself for the past 2 months...Summer is hitting the desert yet again...And time seemed to pass faster than expected. Half a year of 2009 is about to be up...and yet there's alot to catch up with...
Marina Barrage Picnic while she was back...
And this is last month's Jumeira Beach outing while the weather is still bearable...it would be long before we'll hit the beach again...40degrees and going up..
Glad she's finally warming up to Dubai and making a couple of friends here, and meeting a few unexpected people here. Perhaps this is all that will make the Dubai Experience something worth remembering too...
Marina Barrage Picnic while she was back... And this is last month's Jumeira Beach outing while the weather is still bearable...it would be long before we'll hit the beach again...40degrees and going up..
Apr 28, 2009
Home April 24th-May 4th
I'm home for a week...
I've got seriously uncomfortable with driving the new car. Wasn't the perfect picture that I pictured I would be like before I drove. Not only was I trying to get used to the new car and driving at incredibly slow speed and following behind lorries and busese on the expressway, I seem to forget the road around small Singapore. I can't remember where the exits are exactly and I panicked even more when I have to park the car. Panicky me is super unglamourous..
Well...heard that office isn't doing well and basic instinct is actually telling me to start pathing another way for myself in preparation for the worse. Actually I still have a job if we moved back to Singapore, but I guess it's me who thought of moving away and learning something new. Well..I've been way way less commited to work and I think if it really happens, I'll look for a new job which I've been talking about since last June? It's almost a year now.. And a few more months to end of Aug which I've been waiting for. So just let me pass it and save a little more...
But looking on the bright side, losing my job might not be that bad. It would just become another plan that we've been talking about since months ago. To take time off and buck up on my portfolio. Now that I might loose my job because of unethical colaborations, well, the more my portfolio should be ready for a new job, and school as well.
I've got seriously uncomfortable with driving the new car. Wasn't the perfect picture that I pictured I would be like before I drove. Not only was I trying to get used to the new car and driving at incredibly slow speed and following behind lorries and busese on the expressway, I seem to forget the road around small Singapore. I can't remember where the exits are exactly and I panicked even more when I have to park the car. Panicky me is super unglamourous..
Well...heard that office isn't doing well and basic instinct is actually telling me to start pathing another way for myself in preparation for the worse. Actually I still have a job if we moved back to Singapore, but I guess it's me who thought of moving away and learning something new. Well..I've been way way less commited to work and I think if it really happens, I'll look for a new job which I've been talking about since last June? It's almost a year now.. And a few more months to end of Aug which I've been waiting for. So just let me pass it and save a little more...
But looking on the bright side, losing my job might not be that bad. It would just become another plan that we've been talking about since months ago. To take time off and buck up on my portfolio. Now that I might loose my job because of unethical colaborations, well, the more my portfolio should be ready for a new job, and school as well.
Mar 16, 2009
Signature
Handwriting VS Personality
"Those who write the first letter of the name followed by the surname and put dot or dots below the signature are very lucky. Such people take birth to reap the fruits of their previous birth. They are religious and soft spoken. They are very simple and sensitive. Hence they are very gullible. This is the only drawback in their personality. People who write their full name as the signature are very special. Drawing a line beneath the full name indicates their spirituality. They are full of zeal and they know how to use it best. They are very self-conscious. Whichever field they choose, they start innovating in that. Such people are far away from selfishness and egoism. They are very close to God. "
"Those who write the first letter of the name followed by the surname and put dot or dots below the signature are very lucky. Such people take birth to reap the fruits of their previous birth. They are religious and soft spoken. They are very simple and sensitive. Hence they are very gullible. This is the only drawback in their personality. People who write their full name as the signature are very special. Drawing a line beneath the full name indicates their spirituality. They are full of zeal and they know how to use it best. They are very self-conscious. Whichever field they choose, they start innovating in that. Such people are far away from selfishness and egoism. They are very close to God. "
Mar 15, 2009
I wonder why.
Have you ever complained about the situation you are in, yet you know you are in a sitaution better than a few million people out there?
You complain about the colleagues you met at work, and wanted to quit your job because you couldn't bear the sight of them even for another day.Yet you know how fortunate you are as compared to the thousands out there have no colleagues to even complain about because they don't even have a job to start with to feed their family of few.
You question and often doubt yourself, with what you have, who you have. But for many others, they don't even have what you have to begin with. Some said parents aren't earning enough, yet there are a world of them out there whose parent's could not even afford to bring 3 meals onto the dining table.
And very often the case that a patient is fighting for his/her live, yet a completely healthy person choose to end their life.
Weird isn't it. No matter how poor you are, or how rich you are, how healthy you are, how sick you are, how fortunate you are, how unfortunate you are. We all have our own troubles and own worries.
You complain about the colleagues you met at work, and wanted to quit your job because you couldn't bear the sight of them even for another day.Yet you know how fortunate you are as compared to the thousands out there have no colleagues to even complain about because they don't even have a job to start with to feed their family of few.
You question and often doubt yourself, with what you have, who you have. But for many others, they don't even have what you have to begin with. Some said parents aren't earning enough, yet there are a world of them out there whose parent's could not even afford to bring 3 meals onto the dining table.
And very often the case that a patient is fighting for his/her live, yet a completely healthy person choose to end their life.
Weird isn't it. No matter how poor you are, or how rich you are, how healthy you are, how sick you are, how fortunate you are, how unfortunate you are. We all have our own troubles and own worries.
Mar 14, 2009
Independence
Have you ever felt like you have been losing that sense of independence you always had with you?
Have you ever dislike that part in you that start relying on others?
Have you been starting to rely on others to make your days slightly better, or make you feel abit better?
Not a wise choice to rely on others. No?
Scary to let others determine your happiness. No?
While she always make it a point to be independant and happy, without letting anyone determine the way she feel, some days, she feels scared that she seems to be losing it...
She should never, ever lose it. Independance is of great strength to her,as well as a protective barrier to her. Where has the inner peace gone to?
Have you ever dislike that part in you that start relying on others?
Have you been starting to rely on others to make your days slightly better, or make you feel abit better?
Not a wise choice to rely on others. No?
Scary to let others determine your happiness. No?
While she always make it a point to be independant and happy, without letting anyone determine the way she feel, some days, she feels scared that she seems to be losing it...
She should never, ever lose it. Independance is of great strength to her,as well as a protective barrier to her. Where has the inner peace gone to?
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