Feeling like winter in Summer

God knows what is troubling that confused and sad mind...
Only god knows because she doesn't know what is bothering that usual independent girl...when typing a blog feels like the tears are stuck behind the eyes.

Feel like crying but not sure what she's crying for.

Feeling useless, feeling definately less independent, feeling like a job didn't land on her hands like it should really be, feeling moody of her mood swings...One moment smiling and one moment worth smiling, she feels the opposite. Why does she feel like a breakup with herself?

Reading self help book is perhaps a sign that life needs some rectification and correction. Its time you need a book to remind yourself to buck up, and everything is not gonna matter one year down the road, so why bother getting all stressed about it. When you need a book to remind you that "snowball" effect of thoughts is really unhealthy and wasting alot of time stressing over it...

Buck up. Just Buck Up...Everyday...It will be ok...Someday, Someday...Someday winter would be over...

Dreaming of an Italian holiday

Well well, she still prefers European holidays over Asian-never-ending-shopping holidays...

She loves watching architecture, culture, history and.....and just a little shopping will do because its nothing too unique. You can do it back home too :)

Oh well...Should apply leave soon. Tentatively would be just herself on this trip unless someone pops up to join her.

This time, unlike London and Frankfurt, she wants to spend a fruitful air ticket and get travelling around in trains, which she always fear...And visit many places...

Rome, Florence, Venice, and if possible to squeeze in Amalfi, Naples in that short 11-12 days trip...she wants to see the blue and clear waters of the Mediterranean Sea...Though Southern part of Italy like Sicily would be god damn perfect but guessed it might be alitle chilly to visit near the end of the year...Oh well, leave those pretty Medditerranean places for future honeymoon, if it ever happens. Haha, and also the lavender fields would be one place on earth worth visiting :)

Just throw me beautiful scenery on the train, bicycle or a cute little vespa scooter...She'll be a damn happy girl...and a memory to last for a long long time...