My imagination

Typing this is the middle of the night. She knows it well that she should go to rest. The body wants to rest, but the heart wants to stay awake to do more things, aimlessly.

It is one of those days that she wished the distance wasn't so far. She wish that she could finish work and head down for an aimless walk with him. The thought of walking down the street, just enjoying the company, even if there isn't much exchange of words, is simply heartwarming.

Somehow along the way, it seems that the perfect thought of the future never really comes to happen in real life for her. Well, of course there are moments that are more than what she can ask for, but human are greedy. The next time she's not ever gonna give up her annual leave. NEVER!! Just forget about what a fool she is to have given up. Damn it.

Somedays she wish she could just break the rules a little. But knowing the other half will not approve of it, she has to be obedient. Hmm...Well well..what can I say..Costly plan to execute and she is constantly reminded to spend wisely..But you know that there's some things that money could buy for you? Or should I say, money can exchange time for you, and maybe freedom.

If only I could spend the day with you. Like I've always wanted to. Guess that's why I'm made for who I am. Thank God that I'm created to daydream and imagine alot. Daydream and Imagine at work, and imagine my own fairytale, imagine going out with you, imagine being there with you in your every step. I wish I could have it realised than just purely imagining the best picture. Thinking too much sometimes hurt you on the inside. Especially when it is very simple to accomplish, but you seem to be the one whose not that ordinary.

Darling, I remember you and I definately miss you. Another 89days, 15hours and 56 minute is very long. I do have alot of imagined-plans.

Imagined being able to attend events with you.
Imagined spending a nice short holiday here with me, sightseeing, walking aimlessly...
Imagined being able to not hide from anyone about us..(which I'm very tempted not to hide anymore..)
Imagined going back home and go on a short trip nearby with you and my dear friends.
Imagined parents who accepted my decision.
Imagined if only I am courageable enough to admit to them.

Today was one of those days she remembered walking down the riverside and crying hard yet quietly on his shoulder. Today was one of those days she missed that presence so badly.

And on the other hand, she frustrated.
Some people should just mind their own business. We have no TV here, doesn't mean that your not-so-close friends can be your "celebrity entertainment news".
She felt being "supervised/watched/talk/thought about". She feels restricted, and definately provoked to display the rebellious side of her. Yes Love, I know you will always opt to go the other way of being in your own world and doing your own things. Yes, I want to but at the same time I wish people could just not talk. Its tiring to be wary of your surroundings, to be wary of your actions and words, to be wary of offending, to be wary of every single damn thing. Even wary of being seen walking out from office. I'M NOT A KID MUMMY!! And maybe because she's got enough of being wary of her actions, that's what tempting her not to hide him from anyone.

Goodnight world. Goodnight Love. Goodnight my friends.