Somedays it just happen..

I still fear the feeling. I know myself so well. It always happens.

She doesn't know what is fear only after the situation is slap across her face. In her eyes when she see the change. She might know it for a long long time and have accepted the fact. However, its those roller coaster mood always. She fears, and then tell herself to accept the fact and look on the bright side and take some positive actions, think she can accept it, think she has already accept it, then when the day the actual things happens, the fear rushes in again.

She dislike changes. She love changes to routine. But she dislike changes in human connection. Most of the time, she doesn't do anything to rescue anything for she believe that what is meant to be is meant to be. Friends who will be friends, will be friends afterall. Yet, deep down sometimes, she wishes that despite the distances, people remember each other even after a long long while.

Hopefully the roller coaster reaches the stage where she has accept it and she is positive.