The contradicting girl.

For most times, she's perfectly fine having that no special someone. She couldn't commit she thinks so... And she don't really give chances for anything heartbreak in the future. And moreover life's been as fun. And seeing couples no longer bothers her.

However somedays she just wished it was different. When was the last time she really love someone like he really matters? When was the last time she actually have someone to hold her hand in the bus? When was the last time she knows she could cry her saddness onto someone's shoulder? When was the last time she hugs someone and felt that he too cares?

Somedays she felt tired of going out with different guys every week. Needless to mention she did not feel for anyone of them. She wasn't looking for anything special with them either. Her girl friends are occupied on the days she is free, with their other half. She couldn't remember when was the last time she actually went out on a all girls outing trip. She is not blaming anyone. She didn't want to face those problems the girls faces too.

But yes. Deep down she wishes that that special someone can
- efffortlessly make your worse day not that bad afterall
- sense her feeling once in awhile
- make her feel that everyday felt like it was the first day she met him
- make her release the child in her once in awhile and still smile when she is being kiddish

She wants a special someone who can be her soulmate so that she could escape on a holiday with, have fun, have laughter, and allows her to cry when she is upset and totally understand why she is crying.