The moment she felt that comfort.

She was tired from a week of working like an elf. She was fast asleep this morning when her dad left for Hongkong for a business trip. And she wasn't even aware of it til she saw him in his luggage today. That struck her. She manage to sleep 9 hrs finally.

Her's her schedule for the past 1 week:
- Working hours starting Tues 9 am : Continuous 20 hr + 2 hr of sleep from (5am-7am in office) + went home for a bath
- Working hours starting Wed 10am: Continuous 14hr + 7 hr of sleep (at home)
-Working hour starting Thur 11am on Labour Day: Continuous 16 hr + 2.5 hr of sleep (at home)
- Working starting Fri 10am: 12 hr + 7 hr of sleep
-Working on Sat : 10hr
-Working on Sun : 9hr

Yes she is wokring tomorrow too.

Maddness. She needs a break. And Bernard message her if she wants to attend his birthday at Bintan. Sound good but buddy Terence is having his 21st on Sat too..So Bintan might be gone again.

But what bought comfort to her is knowing that somehow somebody out there recognise her effort. She might be getting somewhere afterall. She might have worked hard and she did not think too much about anything. But guess its been fruitful. She is humble after knowing it and happy. People wants her to work for them. She thinks so. She is not looking for a big ambition. She is happy working as a supporting crew. A good one. And knowing this, she is truly motivated and will put in more effort. She is taking her little step out of her comfort zone. She feels she is making a difference for herself. She feels alot more stronger. She will one day.

Somedays she's angry at clients who never seem to understand we don't have an elf working in the middle of the night for us when we are sleeping. Somedays she feels she's so screwed up. She felt so fucked up some days that every single thing is fcuked up. But guess, somehow, she's feeling that passion lighting up slowly again. She hate her job, but she love her job. Hate and love. What an irony. But think she might have begin to fall into a deeper love for her job, despite the anger and frustration moments.

And she is toying the idea of furthering her knowledge or rather education.